Listening to Brian Mcfadden song "Real to Me", I found the 3:43 minutes to ask myself what is real to me?
That's a tough question right?
Probably, our values, the ones we have and not believe or would like to, is what is real to me. So our "Ego" is the most real to us. When we act while thinking about ourselves.
At this point, I feel like giving my personal meaning about "Ego". We tend to say that this person, for example, is a very egoistic person, right? What does it mean? That this person cares only about themself. If we try to face it on the other side of the coin we can say that a person that is the least egoistic is doing things caring only for the others, right?
My question is: "Isn't someone doing everything for the others in order to see the same thing happening to them, too? Aren't we egoistically giving the penny for charity thinking that if we will be in the same place we will expect to get it back? Aren't we deep inside clap or approve a not so good attempt in order to receive the same for our attempt?"
If the answer is yes, what is real to me?
Wake up you might be dreaming,
wake up you might be dreaming now...
4th Border | Goodbye
I have read a few things in my life but never read or even heard what is the best way to say Goodbye. We are conquering the space and we do not have the appropriate words to say how fucking desperate we feel, how idiot and dull, how destroyed, heart-broken, emotionless, stuck, terrified that we will not possibly see again the same people, kiss the same lips, relax on the same shoulder, cry because we are inspired or motivated by them, feel the touch on the shoulders, taste the same hug in the difficult moment.
It is strange.
If I had the ability to ban a phrase that would be the: "Keep in touch!". NO! I don’t want to keep in touch, I to have you with me, next to me always there but what I have to endure to have you just in me.
I asked myself and my people around me. Is it better to cry for the ones you lose or celebrate for the times you spent with them? For sure the second, but what if I want to cry and celebrate. What if I want to have all the feelings in the same bottle? What if I want shampoo, conditioner, softer and cream in the same bottle?
There are moments that I make the thought I should not connect with people so that I would not feel bad to leave them back. I am loosing myself.
If someone has ever feel strong enough to shape the world I would ask them what about the people we love and they live far from us? What about them? The moment you have to run in order your tears not to be seen bumping burning out of your eyes, you always feel like the weakest existence on earth.
And what if we are? I mean when I feel I can change the world I don’t have proven results that I can do it, when I feel like I cannot bridge the distance path I have all the proofs there.
Bridge 1 - Homes
At the moment I learn how to reach home without getting lost on the way, I find myself without a home.
Is it destiny or maybe habit?
The importance lies maybe on what a home is. What is a home?
Is it the place where your friends are? The place where the ones you love are? The place with "your" stuff? Is it the place where you can hide? Is it the place that gives you the safety to accumulate all the adventures you had out of it? Is home the reflection space you take in a conference?
Ancient Greeks had one whole God responsible for the home "affairs". She was Estia. She was highly connected to fire. So was maybe for the ancient Greeks the warmth the main characteristics defining the home? I guess I don’t know. What I know is maybe that home is a short of imaginary or created concept. If life is a game for example, as many people say, where is the home part? If life was monopoly, would jail be the home, or would it be the parking lot?
It seems on the other hand, that even home is a created concept, many beings around us have the need of it. We are even putting our Gods in homes. We are amazing.
On the other side, home maybe is an idea that we give the meaning on it. That would be nicer. It would also make it easier to have more homes than one!
Nevertheless, I am on the process of rebuilding my home, and I hope that it will be the more creating, refreshing and self stimulating home ever.
With all the love somebody can have for the homes of the past.
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